And as we sat there listening to the carolers,
I wanted to tell Brian it was over now and
everything would be okay. But that was a lie,
plus, I couldn't speak anyway. I wish there was
some way for us to go back and undo the past.
But there wasn't. There was nothing we could
do. So I just stayed silent and trying to telepathically
communicate how sorry I was about what had
happened. And I thought of all the grief and sadness
and fucked up suffering in the world, and it made
me want to escape. I wished with all my heart that
we could just leave this world behind. Rise like two
angels in the night and magically... disappear.